Perfectly Imperfect

"Stop trying to be perfect!" I have to tell myself that all the time. Old habits die hard, right? Yes, they do. For so long I tied my performance to God's love for me that it's taking some practice to believe that God's love for me is constant, no matter my performance. There is so much freedom in not being perfect, but there is a lot of fear too. Fear, I think, because no one wants to embrace their imperfection!!

I will tell you though, I feel more love in the moments when I mess it all up and I hear that quiet whisper telling me he loves me anyway, than I ever felt when I got the thumbs up for a job well done.

Have you heard that whisper in your moment of weakness? See, what I am discovering is that this unconditional love does not ignore my imperfection, trying to pretend it isn't there. No, this unconditional love looks my imperfection square in the face, opens its arms wide..and then says "I love you anyway."

I say again...stop trying to be perfect...

What I am learning is that by accepting my imperfections, my flaws, my inabilities, I am able to perfect them. What I mean is, if you find yourself in the same imperfect state as me..there is hope!! Jesus has not come to me so that I can just shrug my shoulders and say "well good, since you're here, I'll just keep walking this way, being this way, and it's all fine".

No.

If you catch hold of this fierce, unrelenting love that I have discovered...am still discovering...your prayer will be quite different. I thank Jesus, constantly, for accepting me as I am but my prayer is always "Oh God, change me." When I see a flaw in myself, instead of hiding behind it, or trying to run from it, I shake my head and point my finger at it and ask "Can you do something about this, Jesus?"

"I can," he always says with that tone that sounds so full of hope and love.

I hate to break it to you, but imperfection is unavoidable. You are not perfect. I am not perfect. None of us are perfect! We can, though, throw ourselves at the foot of the cross and ask Jesus to pour grace and mercy over us so that we can walk towards perfection. I strive to be like Jesus, which is perfection. I look at the flaws in me and I gladly hand them over whilst pleading with him to please, please, please make me into someone that resembles him.

I will, one day meet that goal of perfection, but not until Jesus comes for me and takes me home. Until then the journey is imperfect, full to the brim and overflowing with grace, mercy, forgiveness and love that knows no end.

Love that knows no end...I'll take that any day over perfection.

"But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners" Romans 5:8

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