Earning Our Worth
We are called to abide in Jesus. Everything else should simply be an outward expression of who we are in him. So often though, I think we live life in the reverse of that. At least I do. It's really easy to get caught up in the work and forget that it doesn't fill us, restore us or save us. Man, this is hard.
My heart accepts the truth but my head doesn't want to follow my heart.
The truth that my heart accepts is that Jesus is the center. My plans, my goals, my dreams, my ideas are not the center of my world. Jesus is. My heart accepts this and I feel safe and secure. My mind, on the other hand, is not so easily convinced. I get easily caught up in the "good" I might be doing or that I'm doing something in "the name of Christ" and totally forget that those things do not determine my value. Whether I succeed or fail at the "stuff", Jesus is still the center of my world.
Oh, how I want this too sink deep into my soul!
We are valued in this world by our actions...but not in God's. He valued us before we chose him. He valued us before we knew him. He values us today, no matter our actions. Our value is never determined by our actions. I think, without meaning too, we communicate a very distorted message to the world when we start trying to "impress them". We send the message that God would like us to impress him so he can determine our worth.
What a lie.
Truth is, when we start trying to earn our worth, what we are really doing (what I am really doing) is placing a price tag on salvation. When we try to earn our worth, we tell the world that "yes, there is a price tag on salvation and I am trying to save up enough to get it." Now, should there be a visible difference in me and someone who has not accepted Christ? Yes. Should my actions speak of what has happened in my life. Yes. Does that make me more valuable than the next person? No. The thing I'm learning is that as I fall madly in love with Jesus, I can't help but be changed. When we are so overwhelmed by who he is in us that we simply can't keep it to ourselves, it just starts to spill out in our words and actions.
This is a sneaky lie of the enemy and one that I've caved into many times before. In fact, my whole life used to be about earning my worth. Now, I am so aware of my inability to earn it, that I am left with nothing but empty hands that I raise to a God of unending love and mercy. What's so cool is that when I lift empty hands to him, he fills them up with something I can give to others. Now that, my friend, is love in it's purest form! True love indeed! Your worth was established before you were formed. You were deemed priceless then and still are today. Nothing you say, do, don't say or don't do will ever change that...ever. The question now becomes not, "Am I worth it?" but, "Is he worth it." Is he, friend? Have his actions shown you his love is pure and endless and free? His love is pure and it changes me daily, but the value he places on me never changes. He calls me priceless...and that's one label I will gladly accept!
How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings. 8 They feast on the abundance of your house; you give them drink from your river of delights. 9 For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light. Psalms 36:7-9