On a Day Like Today
Nothing surprises God. On a day like today, that makes some people very angry. "If God knew this was coming then why didn't He stop it?!" I can completely relate to this struggle. For many years I wrestled with that question. I was angry at God for a long time because I thought He had been sitting back, like a couch potato, watching my life play out and letting all the bad just happen.
I was wrong.
The truth is that this God I serve sees, hears and feels my pain. He does not hide or shrink away when I hurt. He isn't surprised and unsure of what to do with me in those moments. He gets down in the muck where I am and pulls my pain covered, broken, bleeding self onto his lap and holds me while I hurt. He lets me bleed all over him. He lets my tears drench his shoulder.
He cries with me.
On a day like today, it is easy to shake a fist at God and accuse Him of being uncaring or incapable. The temptation, on a day like today, is to build a wall between ourselves and God because we see all the suffering and think He can't possible relate. It's tempting to think God has gone into hiding.
He has not.
On days like today, when the evil and yuck of this world are thrown on us like vomit, it's really hard to see the good. It's might be easier to believe that God has forgotten, or that he chooses to turn his face away.
I am constantly having to remind myself that God works in ways I never think of. I won't find Him in the common, or the expected. He is always found in the unexpected. Nothing surprises Him, but that is the miracle of grace. He sees all and yet He is always working out his plan of redemption. Only a good God can do that. To see the horror of our choices and not throw in the towel...well that speaks of something powerful. It speaks of love.
To love is to live. If that is true, then evil is going to claw, scratch and scrape at love until it's dying day. When we sign up to be on God's side, we are signing up for war. Evil is not going to go quietly, and we shouldn't expect it too. When evil shows it's ugly head, in an attempt to drown out the sound of life, that is when we must fight back. We must fight back with mercy, compassion, forgiveness and grace. Those are the sounds of life.
On a day like today, we can be sure that God is here, in the middle of our mess, working out His plan of redemption. I don't know how He does it, but I know He does. Just watch and see. You will have to look in unexpected places but if you look for Him...you will see Him. I found him tonight, as I tucked my little girls in bed. I saw Him when my daughter asked to read her Bible before going to sleep. I heard His voice in the
prayers of my little one. Yes, I have seen God's redeeming love today...just as clearly as I have seen evil's claw of death.
I pray God's tender mercy will fill the souls of those who have suffered today. I pray hearts will be humbled before this God of unending mercy and grace. I pray that the sounds of life will rise above the chaos of death and souls will be redeemed. I pray that redemption's song will be heard clearly and it will continue to rise until the day evil is destroyed...once and for all.
"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." John 16:33