Words and Waiting

I am a words smith. Even before I began writing, I was a "wordy person." My husband will tell you if you ask that my secret calling in life was to be a lawyer. You want to debate? Oh, I can debate. I'm very good at arguing. (I am not bragging either!) I let the enemy trick me too often into using words to hurt. I have so much to learn. It's very, very interesting to me, that in order to write, I must stop talking and listen. Yes, that's right. To write something worth reading, I have to shut up! I have no doubt that God did this on purpose...giving me this desire to write so that I would learn the art of...quietness, or more appropriately named, the art of listening.

I have a lot to learn about the use of word. Oh, and I have a sneaking suspicion that what I learn in this part of the process will be far more valuable than the project that comes out of it. Yep, God is more interested in the person I'm becoming than the next book I write. So, I'm trying to see my life the way He sees it. I do forget, though. Sometimes, I get all "humanish" (new word!) and start questioning, doubting, letting fear creep up, but at the end of the day God is still there, gently reminding me that His ways and His plans are perfect. Mostly, He just reminds me that He hasn't forgotten me. He reminds me that He sees me, He plans for me, He cares for me...better than I care for myself. I don't know about you, but patience is not my greatest virtue. Well, it actually depends on the scenario. In some moments I can be very patient...other moments...not so much. 

Do you ever feel forgotten by God? In our impatience, we sometimes decide that God has let go of us or found better things to do, but that just isn't true. Whatever is in your heart, whatever you have desired for a long time and not seen come to pass, whatever you dream...God sees it too. He saw it before you did. He was planning before you were even aware of those desires. He was making a way before you started asking. He is already in your future, bringing your past and present together to meet Him there. Wow. 

As frustrating as the waiting might be, that is where we grow. It is where the rubber meets the road. Do we trust God...or not? Has He forgotten us or is He working in a way we cannot see? Is he working for our good...or not? Well, I choose to believe. I choose to trust. I choose to wait...and in the waiting I choose to listen. And, when I need a reminder to be patient, I will read this post! ;)

Waiting is hard. There is no secret to making it easy. Human nature just isn't patient. I fight daily to be patient, to wait. I am constantly surrendering my desires and plans to His higher plans and ways. I try to take those plans back into my own hands but he graciously reminds me that if I will just keep letting go, he will do things I could never plan on my own. When the time is right, he will give me the right words. When the time is right, he will open the door for you, too. Don't be discouraged! Don't loose heart! God has such perfect timing and when he makes us wait, it is because there is something better to be found once we have waited than what we could have in this moment. God is orchestrating a grand plan that miraculously involves each and every one of us. We need only to trust him, and he will pave the way.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than yours and my thoughts than your thoughts." 
Isaiah 55:8-9


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